I'm getting more nervous by the minute!! I thought I was ready for surgery but it turns out I'm freaking nervous!!! I don't think I'm going to handle this appointment today. I'm freaking out. Crying all day.
I'm not OK with hearing I need surgery, even though I already know it. I'm a mixed bag of emotions, most of the time I have been ready for surgery and had a bring it on attitude. But now I'm scared! Very scared! I don't want to be cut open again... The pain!!
It's getting real now that I'm most likely going to be picking a surgeon in the next couple of weeks and then scheduling surgery after that. I'm freaking out!!